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In Loving Memory of my nephew, Ryan…

Ryan’s my oldest nephew. I was in shock. Late morning on January 8 -2019, I got a text from a family member letting me know Ryan was gone. Driving home from visiting his Grandma Martha, I had no words. I felt sad we’d lost touch into Ryan’s young adult years. I don’t know about you, but I believe life is a sacred gift from God, and I know God hurts when we hurt and lose someone. God’s desire is that no one should perish…so how…why? The Bible says God knows all our thoughts and knew us even before we were born. As I thought of Ryan, my heart felt broken…for his brothers Andrew and Matt, his sisters Amy and Leah, and for his parents.

As I drove along, a memory surfaced…like a ripple on a pond or wind blowing gently on a field of grass. I remembered walking with Ryan as a boy of seven one bright lovely summer’s day across a field behind my parents home near St. Vital Park, Winnipeg. Suddenly Ryan stopped, “I have to go back. I feel sick. My head hurts.” His face was pale, so I asked, “… should we pray and ask God to take your headache away?” Ryan looked puzzled, ‘What’s prayer? …who’s God?’ 

”…prayer is talking with God. God gave you your life. He made the air, sun, sky, trees, everything. We’re all God’s children and He loves us to ask Him for help and talk with Him anytime…and to thank Him when He answers us…soooo —should we ask Him for help?” Ryan nodded like it was worth a try. We closed our eyes, prayed a short prayer in Jesus Name asking God to make him well, then Ryan scrunched his forehead, twisted his neck, and I’ll always remember his beautiful smile. Before I could say another word, he raced off — not to the park, but straight home, running, jumping, shouting, “…it worked!! it’s gone, the headache’s gone! I’m not sick anymore!” ”Hey, what about our walk?” I hollered after him, but Ryan had shot off through the back door yelling, “Hey!! guess what? Me and Susan asked God to help and now I’m not sick, my headache’s gone!” (I don’t know what everyone else thought, but I’m sure God was laughing. I love it when He helps and surprises us.)

Now here I was…on an icy cold wintry night, driving by that same field where Ryan had walked with me long ago. And suddenly I knew…God was reminding me He’d heard my prayers. I knew that just as He’d helped Ryan way back then, He was helping him now. He knows us each by Name, and I knew He was letting me know, “Ryan’s not far away, he just raced on ‘Home’ ahead…to a far, far better place…where there’s no sadness, pain, fear, death or tears.” Revelation 21:4, John 3:16, Acts 16:31 XOX forever…